It’s hard to believe that I have not written anything in 3 months. What is even harder to believe is that I have been in a flare since Christmas that does not want to let up. I have a few days here and there where I feel a little better but for the most part I feel exhausted and in pain all the time.
I’ve been trying to get in to see my doctors for the last 3 weeks and finally have an appointment this afternoon with my family doctor. I can’t take feeling like this anymore.
I no longer feel present in my daily life. I just sort of flow along and push through the day with a smile on my face. Once I am home I crash. I’m overly irritable and just want to sleep.
After Christmas I was back on AIP full swing but after 2 months of no improvement in my symptoms and feeling too tired to deal with food prep I said FUCK IT! Will I try AIP again someday? Probably. Will that be anytime soon? Probably not. My focus right now is eating simple, healthy meals that are quick and easy.
Obviously food plays a huge role in how you feel but I don’t think eating a certain way will cure some diseases. Most autoimmune disorders are genetically passed down in families. If you take my family, as an example, we have Lupus, Sjorgens, MS, Parkinson’s, Hashimoto Thyroiditis, Asthma, Allergies, RA, etc… I can look back at least 4 generations for some of these. I don’t think avoiding certain foods or taking vitamins, or drinking apple cider vinegar would have changed anything.
Anyhow, enough with my rant!
With this flare I had a weird rash develop on my neck. Has anyone every had something that looked like this?
The top image was the day it started and the bottom was the following day. It wasn’t itchy then but felt hot and tender. Since I was unable to get into see my doctor I went to the pharmacy and they suggested cortisone cream. This made a huge difference. It hasn’t completely cleared up but it is no longer hot and tender. No idea what caused it but I am sure the answer will be: Lupus.
Some times when you feel like death it is hard not to through yourself a pity party.
Well bye for now. I hope your day is going better then mine!